Assalamualaikum and Salam 1 Malaysia to all readers out there. May only the precious will exist in our life later.
Sound weird reading to the above title? Who are they? Hmm...its really hard for me to write about this. Yes, they are leaving.
First: She is leaving. But I have to accept the reason. She has to go. She has all the rights to leave me. And I will have no reasons to stop her. So I wish good luck friend.
Second: She is leaving too. For the sake of her family. I also believe that she has to go back to her hometown. Her family needs her. I will give full support to her.
Third: He is leaving. I noticed about this long time ago. But I rather choose to wait. Until the day he speaks to me.
Fourth: He is about leaving from our new friendship. Thanks friend for being so understanding for the past 1.5 years. I learned many things. About your journey. About your hurdles in that place. It just me who thinks our new relationship will turn to more meaningful sense when you come home next month. However, things are easily said than done. And on this case, i think both saying and doing the things will have no correlation at all. Becoz, he is not destined for me.
Fifth: They are leaving. All I need is to be more stronger. All I need is to be me. Again and again.
Thanks friends. I owe you a lot. Thanks for being there on my time of needs. Thanks for being friends with me. Thank you very much. You've been my pillars of strength.
Deep inside my heart,
Laura Azura (yg tgh penat membaca buku utk exam siang karang) Adoyai...
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
My newborn Nephew
Assalamualaikum to all readers. May only the precious will exist in your life.
Alhamdulillah, despite of bad moods and demotivated issues, I received one good news from my little (Ops, seem like hard to eliminate that word) bro, informing me that his wife Shidah already delivered their 1st baby on 15th January. Few minutes later, he had MMS me the pic. What a lovely face and his smiling. Handsome dowh!
My adik da besar kan. Walaupun I mmg susah nak buang perkataan little bro tu dari dia. Setiap kali refering to him, I must put together the words. My adik is my little adik. Walaupun adik dah ada keluarga sendiri. It just happened! I mmg selalu rasa walaupun adik dah besar, dah dewasa, dia tetap adik kecil I. Itulah kan. Bunyinya macam sangat emo kala ini.. Hahaha..
Dulu I ada letak entry pasal adik I. So u can refer to them.
By the way Adik or now I should say to my adiks (Adik and wifey),
- Happy Living
- Be a good daddy n mummy
- Be tolerate to each others
- Be responsible
- Be never apart
- Always keep in touch with me...
- Peluk cium untuk baby on behalf of me
- Banyak sabar
and, do happy with what u do.
Da..........
Me: Akak
(Dulu I ngan Adik contacting via mail. And we have our own mailing format. Nanti I share contohnya coz kt umah, I simpan lg surat2 tu. It almost 14 years since 1st letter wrote up...zaman tok kaduk tuh. Its unique, I guess)
Alhamdulillah, despite of bad moods and demotivated issues, I received one good news from my little (Ops, seem like hard to eliminate that word) bro, informing me that his wife Shidah already delivered their 1st baby on 15th January. Few minutes later, he had MMS me the pic. What a lovely face and his smiling. Handsome dowh!
My adik da besar kan. Walaupun I mmg susah nak buang perkataan little bro tu dari dia. Setiap kali refering to him, I must put together the words. My adik is my little adik. Walaupun adik dah ada keluarga sendiri. It just happened! I mmg selalu rasa walaupun adik dah besar, dah dewasa, dia tetap adik kecil I. Itulah kan. Bunyinya macam sangat emo kala ini.. Hahaha..
Dulu I ada letak entry pasal adik I. So u can refer to them.
By the way Adik or now I should say to my adiks (Adik and wifey),
- Happy Living
- Be a good daddy n mummy
- Be tolerate to each others
- Be responsible
- Be never apart
- Always keep in touch with me...
- Peluk cium untuk baby on behalf of me
- Banyak sabar
and, do happy with what u do.
Da..........
Me: Akak
(Dulu I ngan Adik contacting via mail. And we have our own mailing format. Nanti I share contohnya coz kt umah, I simpan lg surat2 tu. It almost 14 years since 1st letter wrote up...zaman tok kaduk tuh. Its unique, I guess)
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Perlu Motivasi
Assalamualaikum dan Salam 1 Malaysia.
Mohon diberi motivasi. Iya, saya tidak bermaya benar kala ini.
Mohon sedikit kekuatan. Iya, saya langsung lemah kala ini.
Mohon sedikit peringatan. Iya, saya sering tidak peduli.
Mohon sedikit kasih sayang. Iya, saya ingin diberi perhatian.
Mohon sedikit dorongan dan sokongan. Iya, saya perlukannya sekarang.
Kadang kala diri sering sahaja ingin lari dari segala kekusutan. Namun saya percaya itu bukan jalan penyelesaian terbaik. Kadang kala juga diri rasa langsung tiada rasa nak meneruskan. Tetapi saya tahu, andai dihentikan, diri sendiri akan binasa. Kadang kala saya merasakan ini bukanlah pilihan terbaik bagi saya. Namun, pilihan apakah lagi yang saya ada. Kadang kala saya merasakan saya sudah berubah menjadi yang lain.
Kawan-kawan, doakan saya mampu bertahan. Doakan saya mampu melakukan yang terbaik. Doakan saya boleh membuat sedikit perubahan. Doakan saya kembali menjadi diri saya yang dahulu. Doakan saya kembali bersemangat meneruskan hidup. Doakan saya kembali memiliki kemahiran itu. Doakan juga saya agar tidak mudah lupa diri. Dan. doakan saya sentiasa berada dalam Kasih Sayang Allah.
Laura Azura Zainal
Mohon diberi motivasi. Iya, saya tidak bermaya benar kala ini.
Mohon sedikit kekuatan. Iya, saya langsung lemah kala ini.
Mohon sedikit peringatan. Iya, saya sering tidak peduli.
Mohon sedikit kasih sayang. Iya, saya ingin diberi perhatian.
Mohon sedikit dorongan dan sokongan. Iya, saya perlukannya sekarang.
Kadang kala diri sering sahaja ingin lari dari segala kekusutan. Namun saya percaya itu bukan jalan penyelesaian terbaik. Kadang kala juga diri rasa langsung tiada rasa nak meneruskan. Tetapi saya tahu, andai dihentikan, diri sendiri akan binasa. Kadang kala saya merasakan ini bukanlah pilihan terbaik bagi saya. Namun, pilihan apakah lagi yang saya ada. Kadang kala saya merasakan saya sudah berubah menjadi yang lain.
Kawan-kawan, doakan saya mampu bertahan. Doakan saya mampu melakukan yang terbaik. Doakan saya boleh membuat sedikit perubahan. Doakan saya kembali menjadi diri saya yang dahulu. Doakan saya kembali bersemangat meneruskan hidup. Doakan saya kembali memiliki kemahiran itu. Doakan juga saya agar tidak mudah lupa diri. Dan. doakan saya sentiasa berada dalam Kasih Sayang Allah.
Laura Azura Zainal
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Demotivated Again
Assalamualaikum
Laura rasa demotivated again.Tolong nasihat sikit...
Laura feels like wanna quit. Laura feels like wanna be away. Laura feels like wanna be alone.
Ya Allah, Laura mohon, permudahkanlah segala urusan Laura...
Laura rasa demotivated again.Tolong nasihat sikit...
Laura feels like wanna quit. Laura feels like wanna be away. Laura feels like wanna be alone.
Ya Allah, Laura mohon, permudahkanlah segala urusan Laura...
Mood tak menentu...
Assalamualaikum dan Salam 1 Malaysia buat semua...
Ini entry dikala mood x stabil. Maka, akan adalah coretan2 yang akan membuatkan anda semua yang membaca rasa nak termuntah dan ada juga yang membuatkan anda bosan dan mungkin jugak menyebabkan ada rasa, kenapalah terbukak blog ni dan sebagainya. Harap Maklum.
Hari ini dalam sejarah, saya rasa macam nak tukar kerja lain. Huhuhuhu.. Entah kenapa saya rasa macam these few years, I've been wallowing myself into self-broken and unimproved. Tak tahu kenapa tapi mungkin jugak sebab td pagi I got a call from my fren. Kawan yang boleh dikatakan melalui fasa2 yang sama dgn saya. I just simply feel jealous. Walaupun sang kawan x buat ape2 tp saya dapat rasakan dia matang benar dan he has kinda latest and very updated info regarding the market nowadays which in turn me, myself did know very liltle yet seem to be lil bit outdated.
Me and him graduated from the same college, went to the same university and graduated on the same time but then... dia kelihatan sangat berjaya. Susah nak cakap. Dah hampir 5 years we left the campus life, and bila pikir-pikir balik, apa yang I harapkan time lps grad dulu (bila I asked myself: How do you see yourself in 5 years to come?)... And now: the answer is nothing! x sama langsung yang I harap2kan dulu... :(
Bunyinya pelik kan?
Aduhai, bila dah mood tak menentu ni mulalah mengidam macam2:
1) mengidam ini. DSLR
2) tak dapat DSLR pun tak pe, asalkan dapat yang ini. Coolpix S80
3) nak tukar handphone ni
4) nak g melancong merata Malaysia especially Cameron Highlands And Ke Sabah dan Sarawak
Aduyai...
Tapi? sapo nak belanjo den? Den tado duit! Time2 macam nilah muncul keinginan nak menikah. Iyo den tak tipu. Boleh si dio support den, Boleh si dio tunaikan angin mengidam den kek atas tu.. Aduyai....
Tapi! Siapokah si dio? Sila muncul ye dengan segera!!!! jangan muntah, cik Laura tengah sengal.
Bunyikan macam cik laura sangat materialistik kan tp tidak...cik laura ni cakap je cam tu. Cik laura sangat la pemalu nk mintak macam2 dgn si dia. sebabnya cik laura ni x suka mintak2 dengan orang. Cik laura ni jenis dah biasa usaha sendiri nakkan sesuatu...ngeh ngeh ngeh...
Wahai kamu2 diluar sana, sila anta permohonan untuk jadi si dia cik laura yang baik hati ini! hahahahaha..
Da.......
Cik Laura yang sengal...
Ini entry dikala mood x stabil. Maka, akan adalah coretan2 yang akan membuatkan anda semua yang membaca rasa nak termuntah dan ada juga yang membuatkan anda bosan dan mungkin jugak menyebabkan ada rasa, kenapalah terbukak blog ni dan sebagainya. Harap Maklum.
Hari ini dalam sejarah, saya rasa macam nak tukar kerja lain. Huhuhuhu.. Entah kenapa saya rasa macam these few years, I've been wallowing myself into self-broken and unimproved. Tak tahu kenapa tapi mungkin jugak sebab td pagi I got a call from my fren. Kawan yang boleh dikatakan melalui fasa2 yang sama dgn saya. I just simply feel jealous. Walaupun sang kawan x buat ape2 tp saya dapat rasakan dia matang benar dan he has kinda latest and very updated info regarding the market nowadays which in turn me, myself did know very liltle yet seem to be lil bit outdated.
Me and him graduated from the same college, went to the same university and graduated on the same time but then... dia kelihatan sangat berjaya. Susah nak cakap. Dah hampir 5 years we left the campus life, and bila pikir-pikir balik, apa yang I harapkan time lps grad dulu (bila I asked myself: How do you see yourself in 5 years to come?)... And now: the answer is nothing! x sama langsung yang I harap2kan dulu... :(
Bunyinya pelik kan?
Aduhai, bila dah mood tak menentu ni mulalah mengidam macam2:
1) mengidam ini. DSLR
2) tak dapat DSLR pun tak pe, asalkan dapat yang ini. Coolpix S80
3) nak tukar handphone ni
4) nak g melancong merata Malaysia especially Cameron Highlands And Ke Sabah dan Sarawak
Aduyai...
Tapi? sapo nak belanjo den? Den tado duit! Time2 macam nilah muncul keinginan nak menikah. Iyo den tak tipu. Boleh si dio support den, Boleh si dio tunaikan angin mengidam den kek atas tu.. Aduyai....
Tapi! Siapokah si dio? Sila muncul ye dengan segera!!!! jangan muntah, cik Laura tengah sengal.
Bunyikan macam cik laura sangat materialistik kan tp tidak...cik laura ni cakap je cam tu. Cik laura sangat la pemalu nk mintak macam2 dgn si dia. sebabnya cik laura ni x suka mintak2 dengan orang. Cik laura ni jenis dah biasa usaha sendiri nakkan sesuatu...ngeh ngeh ngeh...
Wahai kamu2 diluar sana, sila anta permohonan untuk jadi si dia cik laura yang baik hati ini! hahahahaha..
Da.......
Cik Laura yang sengal...
Saturday, December 18, 2010
entry di kala kepanasan dan x leh tido
Assalamualaikum dan Salam 1 Malaysia pada semua..
First of all, I wanna say Alhamdulillah for being able to post a new entry here. Alhamdulillah also because of still having the ability stay healthy in this world.
Apart from that, these few weeks were then became a tough weeks for me. Lots of things to do yet many of them still in progress and lots of stress and pressures attack. Seriously, I am indeed tired. Luckily, I have family and friends behind me to together face these messy things.
Alhamdulillah, my MBA classes went as usual. Although, it promises hard works and tight schedule, I still feel okay. Forget the demotivated issue during the preliminary weeks. I just hope that, this semester, I am able to get better grades. Pray for me.
Alhamdulillah also as mum has reached Malaysia. But then, she is unwell. Pray for my mum okay. Kita doa sama-sama agar my mum kembali sihat dan ceria.
Besides, I really miss this girl namely Suzila Abdul Ahad.
I called her Kak Suzi as she is a year older than me. We used to be good friends during our first degree level. During those old times, we lived in a small house in Section 2 Shah Alam with another 10 students. We did many things together. In short, she is just like a true sister of me.
But now, I face difficulties in contacting her. She cannot be reach by emails, phones or even direct mails. I have all the contact info but still hardly reach her.
Kak Suzi, if u read this, please notify me. I miss u so much...
Until then, mari doa sama-sama agar emak saya kembali sihat...
Salam sayang,
Laura Azura Zainal
First of all, I wanna say Alhamdulillah for being able to post a new entry here. Alhamdulillah also because of still having the ability stay healthy in this world.
Apart from that, these few weeks were then became a tough weeks for me. Lots of things to do yet many of them still in progress and lots of stress and pressures attack. Seriously, I am indeed tired. Luckily, I have family and friends behind me to together face these messy things.
Alhamdulillah, my MBA classes went as usual. Although, it promises hard works and tight schedule, I still feel okay. Forget the demotivated issue during the preliminary weeks. I just hope that, this semester, I am able to get better grades. Pray for me.
Alhamdulillah also as mum has reached Malaysia. But then, she is unwell. Pray for my mum okay. Kita doa sama-sama agar my mum kembali sihat dan ceria.
Besides, I really miss this girl namely Suzila Abdul Ahad.
I called her Kak Suzi as she is a year older than me. We used to be good friends during our first degree level. During those old times, we lived in a small house in Section 2 Shah Alam with another 10 students. We did many things together. In short, she is just like a true sister of me.
But now, I face difficulties in contacting her. She cannot be reach by emails, phones or even direct mails. I have all the contact info but still hardly reach her.
Kak Suzi, if u read this, please notify me. I miss u so much...
Until then, mari doa sama-sama agar emak saya kembali sihat...
Salam sayang,
Laura Azura Zainal
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